Vita Brillanti

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A Personal Post on Valentine’s Day

I’m sitting on my couch, looking like an animal because I just got back from the gym, thinking about love, and how much I love it.

I knew I wanted to write a Valentine’s Day post, but I wasn’t really sure what it was going to be about.  Sometimes the best way to figure it out, is to just start writing. So here it goes…

I count my blessings everyday.  I’m surrounded by people I love, and those that love me back.  My family and friends are the most important beings in my life and Valentine’s Day is a great opportunity to acknowledge them.

I’m a strong believer that V-day is not only about couples, but rather anyone you love!  But this post is dedicated to my hubby, my greatest blessing yet.

I wake up greatful everyday for Jordan, and sometimes I don’t think I deserve someone so pure and kindhearted.  We’ve been together a long time, going on 12 years, and I want our story be somewhere other than the pages of my diary… since I may lose that one day.

The Back Story

If you didn’t know already, Jordan has been a part of my life since 2003; we unofficially met on the school bus when I was a freshmen in highschool (Jordan a sophomore).  Jordan was always listening to music on the bus and I was always curious what he was listening to.  Long story short, I ended up dropping his favorite CD onto the floor and shattering the case. Oops!  I flirted with him, obviously, because I was so embarrassed, and it turned out, we had a mutual friend – his best friend.  And of course, like any interesting love story, I was in LOVE with his best friend, and Jordan was in love with me.

For over a year, I never gave Jord the time of day because I was too busy obsessing over his BFF, which both my mom and sister yelled at me about daily.  J gave me so much attention; when my mom picked my sister and me up from school everyday, he’d hop in, he held doors for me, walked me to class and wrote songs for me.  To be honest, I didn’t know how to handle the attention that he was giving me.  He once played one of the songs he wrote for me at our talent show.  I will never forget it.  But as a Sophomore in highschool, I was embarrassed knowing that everyone knew he liked me, and I was also desperate to play it cool since I was still trying to attract his best friend, mind you, the one who paid no attention to me (stupid Emily).  Come to find out, the best friend was infatuated with my BFF.  Such a juicy love triangle!  My mom advised I read the book He’s Just Not That Into You.  It didn’t help much.

I attended Jord’s Junior prom as his date, he eventually attended mine, and my feelings for his best friend slllooowwwlly started to dwindle and eventually disappeared towards the end of my Junior year.  Though I was still not perfect, and he still was.

By the end of J’s senior year (my junior), I decided I reallllly liked the kid. I was still playing hard to get but we were absolutely dating and I was sad when he went off to college.  In September 2006 our 6 year, long-distance relationship began.  Within those 6 years a lot happened.  We went on a break for a few days, we made mistakes, I moved to Australia for a while, and he graduated college (2010) and moved down to the NYC.  Within those years, I fell so in love with the man he had become and I knew I’d never feel the way I did about him with anyone else.  He would be my one-and-only, and I was very happy knowing this.

At the end of 2011, I made the move down to NYC to be with him and my sister.  We had the best time running around the city, being in love, and making so many memories.  We were so poor (still kinda are) and we loved cheap wine and food (still kind do).  It was epic.

In May 2013 we  finally got engaged

and in August 2014 we got hitched.

I was always pretty nervous about the idea of getting married, I feared getting married would change everything, but getting married to Jordan was the absolute best decision I’ve ever made.  Being connected to such a supportive human is the best thing!  I love creating things with him, traveling, exploring, talking, laughing and being his.  I’m lucky to have someone like him be so deeply invested in my dreams and passions, and me with his.  He’s an amazing person and I’m so grateful to be able to share this crazy, unpredictable life with him.

If I could to go back and change how we did anything, I wouldn’t.

I love you Jord <3

 

 

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